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posted by [personal profile] devohoneybee at 02:12pm on 24/12/2007
So, I signed the book contract and put it in the mail. Oddly, this has resulted in lots of crazy dreams. It's almost as if, giving over control of my poems is leaving me... naked. And lots of old, weird stuff that I thought long gone has resurfaced. Odd dreams, crying at random moments, feeling all unsorted...

The book itself feels removed from me at the moment, as does my poetry process. I've not had much inclination to write, but I trust that will return in its own time.

My friend Steve says that things feel a bit chaotic when we go through an identity change, and I am moving towards the identity of "published poet." I wonder what is next?

To my friends celebrating Christmas, I wish you the joy of the season. May we all realize, in one form or another, the rebirth of Hope.
Mood:: 'pensive' pensive
location: Western Hemisphere
Music:: Baaba Maal, Firing in Fouta
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posted by [personal profile] luminosity at 11:11pm on 24/12/2007
I feel *just like that* when I "release" a vid into the wild. Not all of them. Just the ones that are ... more about me than about them, if you know what I mean. I feel naked and exposed, discombobulated, a sense of disconnect from the work itself. It isn't usually bothersome and is seldom permanent, you know? But *sometimes*... *sometimes* I feel like I've lost a limb, but I remind myself that I'm like a starfish, and there are more where that one came from.

You have always *been* a poet. You're just walking into another room.

[hugs]
 
posted by [identity profile] devohoneybee.livejournal.com at 12:13am on 25/12/2007
huh, so THAT's the feeling? it's not so much that I am concerned about the poetry (or some other creative avenue) being there when i need it... it's more like, the poetry was ... taking care of something for me. channeling energies that now, aren't being channeled, and so are just bubbling up in a chaotic way.

starfish, eh? *ponders*
 
posted by [identity profile] miintikwa.livejournal.com at 11:29pm on 24/12/2007
Congrats again, my friend, and may your muse return with the new year that is being born. :)
 
posted by [identity profile] devohoneybee.livejournal.com at 12:13am on 25/12/2007
thanks, sweetie -- i have no doubt that it will. *hug*
 
posted by [identity profile] miintikwa.livejournal.com at 02:12am on 25/12/2007
*hugback* :D

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