devohoneybee: (ein sof)
2017-03-30 09:06 pm

i got Passover gift fic!

and it's wonderful. thank you, Lanna!

some knowledge of Jewish things would be helpful for full effect. *grin*
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2017-03-04 04:59 pm

Escapade fundraiser -- Luminosity vid

Escapade is doing a fundraiser and one of the items is $500 for a custom vid by Luminosity. A bit too pricey for me, but if anyone is interested in partnering with me for one of the following fandoms, please let me know!

The Young Pope
The Magicians

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2017-02-11 04:20 pm

poem: Passions

Time passes, passions change.
What used to stir, is now mere story,
a narrative of quickening, lacking sweat
and grime.

One wonders at some slow kindling,
a seed left in frozen soil.

Come spring, and rain,
the unmet pollen of new regard,
come bees, with their tiny licks,
intense but minuscule theater of foreplay.

I'm waiting.
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2017-01-19 11:57 am


Anyone looking for a roommate? I am an early sleeper, and am allergic to down, which means any down pillows or comforters will be removed from the room. I'm told I have a very soft snore.

I'll be coming in a few days early so I'll have a room already.
devohoneybee: (flower circles)
2017-01-10 01:55 pm

memity meme meme

of course, what book happens to be the nearest to you is ... not exactly random.

Grab the nearest book, flip to page 117, the second sentence is your life in 2017.

"In historic Kabbalah there is a long tradition of seeing inevitable changes in the evolution of the feminine energy."
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2017-01-08 08:16 am

Emerald City

I'm liking it so far.

Though, Read more... )
devohoneybee: (ivanova is god)
2016-12-12 09:05 am


has anyone else been dreaming about the trumpocolypse?

at this point, i can't recall details, but almost every night now, i dream with thoughts in my head about blocking cabinet appointees, arguing for clean air (i'm such an extremist, go figure) and other ruminations on the Task At Hand.

I worry i don't have the stamina (or courage) to do what Needs To Be Done in these times, but am heartened by such developments as Van Jones' Love Army and the fact that John McCain (bless his surly, inconsistent heart) and Lindsay Graham are joining dems in calling or a SERIOUS investigation into the Russian hack of America.

Also, love this:

long but absolutely worth reading the whole thing (nods to Luminosity for the heads up).

how is everyone else doing? have we found the balance of terror yet? the right to be absolutely, righteously afraid, AND the power and inspiration and solidarity to do something about it?

with love to all,


n.b.: Ivanova is my power animal
devohoneybee: (oncoming storm)
2016-12-05 10:03 am


who's watching?

Shall we talk about consciousness? What it is, who has it, how you get it?

Assume spoilers in comments.

reading assignment:

Julian Jaynes: The Origins of Consciousness in the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind
devohoneybee: (oncoming storm)
2016-11-18 10:26 am

for any vidders considering Doctor Who vid ideas post Clara

Leonard Cohen, from his last album:

Traveling Light
Leonard Cohen

I’m traveling light
It’s au revoir
My once so bright
My fallen star

I’m running late
They’ll close the bar
I used to play
One mean guitar

I guess I’m just
Somebody who
Has given up
On the me and you
I’m not alone
I’ve met a few
Traveling light like
We used to do

Goodnight goodnight
My fallen star
I guess you’re right
You always are

I know you’re right
About the blues
You live some life
You’d never choose

I’m just a fool
A dreamer who
Forgot to dream
Of the me and you
I'm not alone
I’ve met a few
Traveling light like
We used to do

Traveling light
It’s au revoir
My once so bright
My fallen star

I’m running late
They’ll close the bar
I used to play
One mean guitar

I guess I’m just
Somebody who
Has given up
On the me and you
I’m not alone
I’ve met a few
Traveling light like
We used to do

But if the road
Leads back to you
Must I forget
The things I knew
When I was friends
With one or two
Traveling light like
We used to do
I'm traveling light

Songwriters: Leonard Cohen / Patrick Leonard / Adam Cohen

Traveling Light lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
devohoneybee: (2 women and lotus)
2016-11-11 04:58 pm

one year

I miss my mom.

Lit a candle, cried about the election, bought chicken to make her chicken soup recipe (a lot of root vegetables are involved).

The Jewish calendar yartzeit is on the 29th, but this is the day she died.

I'll be meditating on the gift of life she gave me, and the life she and my father made out of the ashes, for the rest of my life.

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2016-11-01 11:20 pm

poem: Let's Talk About the Roman Empire

So. Let's talk about the Roman Empire. Did it have to fall?
Why did it fall? They sure wore pretty things,
if you watch the movies. Well, the citizens did.
There were also slaves. And also, women
were the property of their husbands. Children, too.
Property. But, you know, they had the Coliseum and stuff.
Bread and circus. Take-out and tv.
The consolations of entertainment. Gladiators. Drone wars.

My father (of complicated memory) used to say,
"The rise and fall". As before, so again.
He appreciated the long, historical view.
Nothing lasts, but also, when something dies,
a new thing comes to be.

I don't know what he'd say now. He, who crossed borders at night,
under fire, with my mother, with their friends. I don't know what he'd say.
Their forged documents in their pocket.

I'm pretty sure he'd be grateful for the day.
For the connections, one by one by one,
that we make and keep with each other.
For the beauty of an aria.
For the tears and laughter
of a very small child.
devohoneybee: (golden boy)
2016-09-11 03:20 pm

okay, people

Watching Star Trek TOS marathon on BBC America and there's that Roman planet with like, slaves and gladiators, right?


I searched "Gladiator" and "Roman" in Star Trek: TOS with characters Kirk and Spock on AO3 and ... I'm not finding it. I refuse to believe it's not out there.

Help me?
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2016-08-05 01:08 pm

Escapade 2017?

Does anyone have an inkling of the dates for Escapade 2017?

I'm being asked to submit a proposal for a professional conference Feb 17 to 19, and want to make sure it doesn't conflict.

Because that would be sad.
devohoneybee: (resolute)
2016-06-30 12:06 pm

father's day

a little late, but something I posted on FB for Father's Day:

To all the fathers on my list, happy Father's Day. To the fathers of children, the fathers of ideas, the scout leaders, the mentors, the teachers, the friend in the midnight hour. To fathering in whatever form, and in whatever body. To the divine father within. To my dad, who made me laugh, taught me to ride a bike, swim in the ocean, print pictures in a darkroom, and use a sewing machine. To his unassuming courage in making family and a life worth living after enduring horrors too unspeakable to name. The hero with upholstery tacks in his mouth, laughing as he took them out with his magnetic hammer, one by one, and nailed them in.
devohoneybee: (where there is darkness)
2016-03-30 03:04 pm

poem: "the absence" *warning: real life death of a parent*

Since she died,
since the day I walked in to the room
and saw, not her, but a still body.

And the face, the face of what had been
her face, but was not now.
So still. The wrinkles smoothed, the skin
devoid of flush.

No breath, of course, but also,
no HER.

My sister, who'd kept vigil, went home.
I stayed to keep watch, until they came.
I thanked her body. Not HER, but her body.
Her belly, for bearing me. Her eyes, for watching.
Her heart, for her love.

I had her to myself, for that brief while. Not HER, but.

Since that day I've been trying to speak of this.
The still, quiet shock of it.
The absence.

There is no place to point.
There is no thing, a no-thing, a not-thing.
I am trying to find my voice
around this not-thing.
I am trying to be in life
now that I know,
not as concept but as itself,
the not-thingness of this thing.
Whenever I approach,
there is only

I am holding myself
a lit candle,
carefully tending
the flame.
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2016-03-09 08:44 pm

the right kind of tears

listening to The Voice and wibbling all over the place.
good release after the stress of last week - spent 5 and a half days sorting, packing, and clearing out my mother's house. Did fine at the time, feeling delayed stress past few days. Watching the drama of The Voice let the tears out, but without the pain. All that dear talent and passion, those beautiful people singing their hearts out. I am love.
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2016-02-19 08:01 pm

Orthodox Jewish rabbis on transgender issues

“The way I see it is that the Torah is both a Torat emet — a Torah of truth conveyed through laws and values, as well as a Torat chesed — a Torah filled with compassion. A religious Jew is compelled to grapple with this dialectic and integrate both components,” Topp said. “With this issue, it means that we adhere fully to our tradition of Jewish law without denying the commandments inherent in it. At the same time, we recognize that a core element of that tradition is to appreciate — with compassion and respect — the humanity of every single individual and act accordingly.”

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2016-01-27 10:05 am

collective cooking

The lovely Gryphonrhi is visiting, and between us we came up with the DELICOUS dish the other day:

Brown pieces of kosher chicken.
Separately, sautee one large or two medium/small onions. Add 3 sticks of celery, 4 cut up preserved lemons, sliced olives (varietal), saffron, black pepper, salt or, as we did, the juice from the olives, and a spoonful of unsweetened cocoa. Seriously.

In a cast-iron enamel or otherwise hardy dish, layer the chicken, rice (we used whole grain "forbidden rice" -- nutty and alluring), and the rest of the ingredients.

Add water as needed for the rice you are using. I used a 2-1 ratio and a little more.

Bake at 350 for 2-3 hours, checking on the water level occasionally.

Rhi, did I leave anything out? DELICIOUS.

eta: dried thin sliced tomatoes, and some tomato paste.