Killa gave me "15"
I lived in Los Angeles. We had moved there when I was just turning 13. I still hadn't adjusted, though my lungs were finally settling down from smog shock. I was pretty stressed from the move away from Delaware, from my friends and our home there, especially the sugar maple out front, and the climbing roses in the backyard. I took refuge in reading a LOT of science fiction. I was starting to make new, good friends, though. 2 of them are still friends today.
I drove a driver's ed simulator. *s*
I was in a relationship with no one, but I pined about my creative writing teacher a lot. He taught me a lot, but changed my perspective the most during one, fraught conversation. I had gone to him in his other role as school counselor to "try to figure out if it was my father or my sister's fault" in a major fight they had had the night before. His question to me, "why does it have to be someone's fault?" turned my world on its axis. I actually felt things... tilt. At my bewildered stare, he elaborated: "Sometimes it isn't anybody's fault. Everyone is doing the best they can, and sometimes it just doesn't work." I think my whole attitude about how to be a psychologist was born right there, in that conversation.
I feared not being able to heal my family. I was also terrified of two years coming up: the year I would be 16, and the year I would be 19. Those were the ages my mother and father were, respectively, when they were in concentration camps. Though it wasn't in words until later, I wrestled with believing I had a right to a life so much freer of suffering than what they experienced.
I worked to get good grades, and to make new friends, and to figure out who I was. It was also the year I got myself into therapy, and started on the journey of believing it actually was okay to have my own, beautiful, happy life.
I wanted to be a doctor, a journalist, a scientist, a telepath. Poetry and psychologist weren't quite on the horizon yet.
Want to meme? Tell me how old you are, and I'll pick a random age for you to remember.