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devohoneybee at 10:46am on 23/05/2010
devohoneybee at 10:46am on 23/05/2010happy birthday to me, I'm fifty three!
i got a call at 8 this morning (oddly, i was up), from a friend who was around the corner and wanted to drop by, which he did, with a gorgeous hanging planter of flowers. he called them "vantanas" but i have not been able to find a flower/pic with that name or similar spellings. but, pretty!
and Hank the handyman brought me ladybugs yesterday, which are slumbering in the refigerator (I know, right?). they must be released at dusk, at the base of the rose bushes, after first flushing the aphids out with water, for maximal effect. report to follow!
also finally got over the chest cold enough to do my first serious try out on my new treadmill -- went 22 minutes at a decent enough pace to work up a sweat, and only minimal coughing. a tarot reading and a bit of meditation, and now i'm off to find some more planters for the front courtyard.
later, i'll take a look at the remaining poetry prompts you guys so kindly gave me (not forgotten, just percolating). also i emailed 2 "guys" on jdate. argh!!! my birthday wish, and i am open to any advice on this, is to get out of the bad loop i'm in regarding dating. i just get so ANGRY and TRIGGERED by, you know, invisible male privilege, the male gaze, being asked to put my WEIGHT on my dating website profile (i didn't), men in the 60's looking for women in their 30's... and so on... that it makes it hard to see who actually might be around and promising. so, yeah, i need help, on not feeling rejected, not taking rejection personally, and recognizing the balance between keeping an open mind and not falling into stupid human dating tricks.
(but i wrote the emails)
so, my wishes for this year:
1. world, plz stop being so scary and painful, with the human trafficking, the child abuse, the war against women, the hate, and all the other darkness. really, stop all that. Now would be good.
2. health -- specifically, my aspirations: "my blood pressure is normal" "i can breathe clearly and easily" "i have plenty of energy" "i can relax" "i can enjoy sex without pain" (long story, medical issues, would love to have that clear up) "my body is resilient and strong" "i have a strong and healthy immune system" "i have no more and no less inflammatory response than i need (no more joint, tendon, allergy, migraine, and/or inflammatory bowel disease shenannigans)" "my brain waves are groovy" "my hormones are in happy and healthy balance" "i have healthy habits" "i am healthy in all ways" "my body is in perfect balance"
3. a life partner -- smart, sexy, spiritual, playful, cares about the world, thinks i'm ravishing. :)
4. my friends and family safe, healthy, and happy.
yeah, those would be good.
*smooshes my flist* you guys bring a lot of joy, playfulness, and thinky thoughts to my life. thank you for that.
and toss me more poetry prompts if you like. i'm enjoying that.
peace, out.
i got a call at 8 this morning (oddly, i was up), from a friend who was around the corner and wanted to drop by, which he did, with a gorgeous hanging planter of flowers. he called them "vantanas" but i have not been able to find a flower/pic with that name or similar spellings. but, pretty!
and Hank the handyman brought me ladybugs yesterday, which are slumbering in the refigerator (I know, right?). they must be released at dusk, at the base of the rose bushes, after first flushing the aphids out with water, for maximal effect. report to follow!
also finally got over the chest cold enough to do my first serious try out on my new treadmill -- went 22 minutes at a decent enough pace to work up a sweat, and only minimal coughing. a tarot reading and a bit of meditation, and now i'm off to find some more planters for the front courtyard.
later, i'll take a look at the remaining poetry prompts you guys so kindly gave me (not forgotten, just percolating). also i emailed 2 "guys" on jdate. argh!!! my birthday wish, and i am open to any advice on this, is to get out of the bad loop i'm in regarding dating. i just get so ANGRY and TRIGGERED by, you know, invisible male privilege, the male gaze, being asked to put my WEIGHT on my dating website profile (i didn't), men in the 60's looking for women in their 30's... and so on... that it makes it hard to see who actually might be around and promising. so, yeah, i need help, on not feeling rejected, not taking rejection personally, and recognizing the balance between keeping an open mind and not falling into stupid human dating tricks.
(but i wrote the emails)
so, my wishes for this year:
1. world, plz stop being so scary and painful, with the human trafficking, the child abuse, the war against women, the hate, and all the other darkness. really, stop all that. Now would be good.
2. health -- specifically, my aspirations: "my blood pressure is normal" "i can breathe clearly and easily" "i have plenty of energy" "i can relax" "i can enjoy sex without pain" (long story, medical issues, would love to have that clear up) "my body is resilient and strong" "i have a strong and healthy immune system" "i have no more and no less inflammatory response than i need (no more joint, tendon, allergy, migraine, and/or inflammatory bowel disease shenannigans)" "my brain waves are groovy" "my hormones are in happy and healthy balance" "i have healthy habits" "i am healthy in all ways" "my body is in perfect balance"
3. a life partner -- smart, sexy, spiritual, playful, cares about the world, thinks i'm ravishing. :)
4. my friends and family safe, healthy, and happy.
yeah, those would be good.
*smooshes my flist* you guys bring a lot of joy, playfulness, and thinky thoughts to my life. thank you for that.
and toss me more poetry prompts if you like. i'm enjoying that.
peace, out.
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